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The heartbreak and Leonard Cohen




Leonard Cohen sings waiting for the miracle
while I get a message
and my life gets broken
she says that she can’t fathom
knowing me and my foibles henceforth

the words war was my subconscious fallacy
I could not convey
that it was a different me
sitting in a lonely corner
of a heated parapet
while I said something
to terrify her trajectory, with me

and Cohen sings,
You wouldn't like it here
There ain't no entertainment
And the judgments are severe

I didn’t have to say
What I said the other day
I didn’t have to measure up
my words to say something I did
all I did was trying to play safe
and I ended up hurting my space
I was some actor on a play
where the audience dreamt of a lost plot

The message was clear from her side
I am the bedrock of her hate
and I deserve the fate
of surreal accusations,
and the desolate acceptances
I don’t deserve her in the
notion of my life
which has more half-truths than fantasies

while I hear Cohen now
his sad verse cannot say or feel
what I feel, at this moment
I feel like letting go
She is not coming back
It is like that I am sitting by the ocean
that has suddenly turned silent

from a comic book
that I created in my childhood
the colours have all merged
into this truth

You wouldn't like it here
There ain't no entertainment
And the judgments are severe

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